Spoiler: Stupid journal is stupid
My first form of fangirling is when I'm alone or it's a secret fandom (Yes I have a few shams in what I watch, no I'm not telling you which ones). Usually one of my friends tells me "Watch _________ it's so cool you'll love it." and usually I crumble and watch the first episode to see what the fuss is about. BTW, my friends are either super good at picking awesome series or they just know what I like (yes I'm talking about you Grace) and it happens one of two ways, I am either hooked first episode, (Ex. SAO) or I really want to understand something and the desire rises much slower. Threw binge watching the series, (The only way to fangirl) I will begin to obsess and just ask questions to the person who introduced me or just wiki shit about the characters. It then progresses to the finale where I have already changed my wallpaper to said fandom and experienced many accounts of giggling like an idiot and hiding behind my pillow, in which I will search the internet for a trace of continuation, most often to no avail. Then I become depressed, and then move on to a new fandom.
My second form is public. This always evolves from the first form, but when I find someone in public who actually like some or most of the fandoms I do, I just vent all my feels and ships to them and they become my new friend. this form usual has side effects of rocking chairs, hitting desks and squealing over hot guys.
My rant is over.
I'm sorry for my stupidity